sorry I’m late, there was a lost doge in front of my apartment complex and I helped him find his owner
aaaaaaaaah!! someone saw one of my tony stark cosplay pics and told me that
i looked like him!! they also had to ask whether i was male/female !!!!
i am blush rn (*´◡`*)
my room is so cold, i don’t even have to put this pie back in the fridge.
i am not even kidding,
part of my room is warmish bc of heater, but then you get close to my closet door and it’s like a fucking tundra.
i had an unopened canned drink sitting by it for the past couple days, just now decided to drink it, and it’s cold as shit.
[dreamy sigh] akiyuki shinbo.
i just wanted to apologize for all the posts about me freaking out and whatnot lately, my psychiatrist/counselor has been out of town on business for the past month and i’m finally seeing them again today, so, hopefully things will improve some after that.
i’m sorry again, i’ve jut been a mess and letting it out here is sometimes helpful i guess bc i’m bad at talking about feelings irl???
thanks for putting up with me, and for the kind things that have been said, you guys are great
haha, wow, maybe wes isn’t all that bad
i emailed him about what happened and what’s been going on,
he said to call him, so i did, and he told me to skip class tonight. he also mentioned some other things, about how he’s been mentally unstable, he has depression, and that he’s been on antidepressants, and he knows it’s hard
he said if i ever needed anyone to talk to, he’s there, and he’s on my side.
i’m so confused bc i borderline hated this man prior to this phone call, and like, wow, you can be a generally decent person, thank you for that
i had to leave during class today bc i started having another breakdown
and i can’t hold myself together
it’s crazy how often I prefer to be alone, but at the same time, I don’t want to be
and it’s not like I want to “hang out” I just want to be with someone, doing our own things but in the same general space
that’s all I want right now